Conversation with God…

Mitzie….I’m asking you to be willing to lose what you love so that I can give you what you need.

But I need my family God. Everyone in my family.  I don’t want to lose anyone.  Don’t you know how much I need them God?

Yes, dear one.  I know that is what you believe to be true. But don’t you know I always want better than you can even imagine for yourself?  You do not know my plan.  I am keeping you hidden from that plan so that you will not lose sight of Me.

Are you saying that you are going to take people I love from me then?  I feel like I’m always the one that you ask to let go of things.  I don’t understand.  Why can’t you ask someone else?  Can’t you accomplish the same thing with someone else?

Love, all I am asking of you is that you be willing to let go of what you hold on to so tightly.  I need you to trust me completely. That no matter what the outcome is, you will know that it was for your best.  I am more concerned with saving lives than I am with comfort. I will go to any lengths to show one single person my great love for them.  You know this….you have experienced my great love first hand.  I desire that none should be lost.  

God this is not fair.  I am tired of hurting.  I’m doing everything I can to be obedient to what you ask of me.  But you keep asking for more.  Do I ever get a break?  Will I ever get to rest?

I know you are tired.  I know you are weary.  I know that anger and frustration well up inside of you sometimes…And yet you still keep choosing to look at me.  Do you know what that does to my heart?  Every time that you fix your eyes on me, moves me.  I am undone by your refusal to be overtaken by your pain and circumstance.  Please keep going with me.  I long to give you more than you can ever ask or imagine.  You will know and understand all of this when it is over.  It will not last forever.  Please hold on. Hold on to Me.  

I’m trying God.  I’ll keep trying….I trust You.


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